Last year, I am truly blessed with different kinds of blessings. From things to people to events and bigger opportunities. 2012 showered me with much love and thanksgiving. It opened my very will to do things that's beyond my reach and doubts. It broadens my capabilities and looking beyond to what is possible. In that same year, the calling gets louder, clearer and much over-whelming. I attended the LiveLoud concert at Cuneta Astrodome and that wasn't part of my plan at all. I find myself lost in hundreds of youths in the said hall. Making my way to the Father, Its hard. Very hard. But He was able to see me when everything was blurred. Then the whole thing turned out like heaven was within my reach. That Father God was hugging me tight and telling me, "Its alright.. :))" bearing that sweet, peaceful and loving smile. My conviction during the worship was again stated. Recharged after a blissful realizations. Let me try discerning for myself again Lord.That was the start again..
When I attended the ICON in Bohol. He again showed me the majestic creation a child could ever dreamed of. It seemed like a deeper familiar voice was talking to me in a way a child to her father. I asked "Father, Will You reveal Your plans for me this year?" The voice said' "Daughter, Let Me reveal my plans slowly so you will be able to grasp and understand everything i made in My most perfect time and moment." That time, my hands got clenched. Shivering from vast cold ambiance i felt surrounding me. Then I heard them singing, " No longer I, but Christ in me.. My heart desires His majesty." I'm down in my knees, praying in a sense that a child wanted to go right next to His father. That moment, I realize that things wasn't be easy at all. I said, "Lord, let me be Your soldier. Let me handle things that You want me to handle. Let me explore more of what can a child like me can do more to make her Father happy. Let me be Your Faithful servant. Let me pursue my heart's desires." Then the voice was starting to giggle, seems like I throw a big thought to make Him giggle like that. It was a prayer full of convictions though hesitations occur in the midst of it.
When we opened the 1st season of CLP for 2012, I was pretty the most excited one. Not to mention the times I really prayed and talked to Him a lot just to help me touched the people that I wanted to crossover to SFC. But I think it really pays off after couple of months. I also decided to pursue the Crossover missions. He said, " You will not work alone anymore my dear princess for you will be able to work with them again and you will all have the same vision for SFC especially in Central 1." And that was one of the biggest surprise ever for that previous year. Best buds like RJ and Janine also cross that bridge. Thank you Lord for always not failing me to make things happen in due expected time. That CLP also triggers me to do and exploring things more. I'm not alone anymore! Challenge re-accepted. Pretty much excited.
Father God, as always was a God full of surprises. He never fail to work out every moment just to make me smile. He makes things perfect with His perfect moves. And series of fun-filled activities was revealed throughout the year. He talked to me several times and I listened keenly. Though sometimes, i doubt but still i believe inspite of the things that may hinder me to come closer to my Father, to my King. I was blessed to have Him made me realize that things will always going out to be great. I was blessed for I know His plans was the best.
From SFC Heat to YFC Provincial Conference to SFC Anniversary night to YFC Regional Conference to Mall Evangelization and different households and chapter gatherings and so-called kamustahan sessions. I really bet that I have the best of everything in my life. That Thank you was not enough word to express my deepest gratitude to help me feel the fulfillment I currently feel. Some people may not achieve these accomplishments but I'm happy that I did. Truly, this year is somewhat the revelation of God's promise doesn't end to my own belief but to the extent that even the things that I hope for was slowly coming to reality. Last night was a re-confirmation that He will still allow me to do what my heart desires. When mom and sib, Bhea asked what I really wanted to do. I burstly told them.. I wanted to finish my studies, I wanted to be a Full Time Pastoral worker for the community. But, hello Yan-yan. To the fact that it wasn't the easiest escape at all nor the highest paid-job in the world but most likely it would be the most fulfilling job I know since then. Its 2013, Yes i know. I'm still faithful with my prayers because He is faithful to me. I know that last night was a big sign that I can pursue this dream job anytime. But the reality, I'm not a selfish. I want to finish first prioritizing the need of my family. I am still eager to say 'Yes' to His call. Let us see. Long to go for 2013. Let us be a blessing to each person we encounter so that we are also blessed. Keep our faith shine throughout the year! Bring it on! :)))